I’m afraid I’ll get dementia.
I’m afraid I already have dementia.
I can see all the signs.
I fumble for words.
I lose my train of thought.
I have trouble concentrating.
I forget people’s names.
I feel vague and confused.
I don’t feel I’m fully functioning.
I forget how to do things.
I don’t understand what people are saying.
But maybe all those things happen to other people too.
Maybe they just mean we’re fallible human beings.
Maybe I hope for perfect behaviour and can’t accept it’s
normal to fall short.
My mother had dementia.
My mother and father in law both had dementia.
So I’m not confident I’ll dodge it.
Dementia affects one in six people over the age of
80 in the UK.
I’ll be 80 next year.
I don’t want Jenny to have to look after me for years as
dementia worsens.
I don’t want to end up a gormless shadow of my former self.
I don’t want my life to end in such wretchedness.
But dementia strikes at random.
There’s nothing I can do to stop it.
No vaccine.
No drugs.
No surgery.
All I can do is hope to be spared.
Tuesday, 14 April 2026
I see the signs
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Same. I stared at a coaster yesterday and couldn’t remember what it was called for about 2 minutes.
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Forgetfulness is normal aging, most have it to one degree or another. When it becomes worrisome is when you don't know what a coaster is, not that you don't remember what it's called. Not I don't know why I came in the room, but what is this room. Where am I? I had a brain injury 15 years ago and had blocks of memory erased. But not what something is or where I am. I'm also forgetting words and I can't tell you how many times during the day I forget what I'm looking for and have to wait a minute to remember.
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