"frantic") but I'd like to reassure anyone worried about my emotional or mental health, or convinced I was about to top myself, that I'm just fine, thanks very much, and there's absolutely no cause for concern.
In fact something very wonderful has happened to me recently (I'm sorry I can't give you any details because it's strictly private and confidential - but it has to do with an unexpected and very fruitful friendship) and actually at this moment I couldn't be happier.
Of course that cryptic little titbit will have your collective imaginations shooting off in a hundred directions, but I'm not saying any more. I'm not having an affair, I haven't met Penelope Cruz, I haven't run into a millionaire, I haven't found the perfect manicurist. But it's something just as joyful and special. In fact more so.
It's funny how every time I think my life is more or less complete, that I've done all the exciting and inspiring things I'll ever do, and that from here on in I'm just trundling steadily towards the old folk's home, suddenly something extraordinary happens that reinvents my life and makes me rethink everything from first principles.
And it happens when I'm not even looking for it. I'm just pottering about, minding my own business, doing the domestic chores, paying the window cleaner, wondering if that bar of chocolate has turned to fat, and whap, something explodes into my life like a meteor and sends everything flying. And what a lovely experience it is.
Are you pregnant?
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Scarlet: Ooh, what an inspired guess! Yes, I just took the test and there's definitely a bun in the oven!
ReplyDeleteWhatever it is Nick, I am happy for you. Such euphoric events are needed for all of us.
ReplyDeleteRamana: Thank you. Sorry I can't be more revealing!
ReplyDeleteWhatever it is, congratulations; on the happening itself and on recognising its wondrousness.
ReplyDeleteI, too, am in the throes of a wonderful happening and can't tell. It's killing me because it's the kind of thing one wants to, and would under normal circumstances be able to, share with the world.
Eryl: I feel your pain! Yes, isn't it awful having to draw a veil over something you just want to shout to the world? But there are good reasons for such extreme secrecy.
ReplyDeletewhen you get to about 14 weeks you should start thinking about meeting a couple of doulas :)
ReplyDeleteNick, I've experienced that too: sometimes when you least expect it, and perhaps most need it, something lovely comes along!
ReplyDeleteKylie: Good thinking. I must track down some doulas. Oh hang on, don't you just happen to be....
ReplyDeleteLeah: It does. And isn't it extraordinary and euphoric when it happens?
Yes, I really feel as happy as the woman in the photo. Probably happier!
ReplyDeleteI suppose I'm lucky in that I can explode all over my blog, it being anonymous (to most).
ReplyDeleteIf it were open I would be more circumspect.
Lovely news wish you could share a bit more without tripping.
XO
WWW
www: Yes, that's the big advantage of blogging. You can expose all sorts of things you would never want to tell your everyday friends and acquaintances.
ReplyDeleteI've cracked the puzzle.
ReplyDeleteYou said: "I'm not having an affair, I haven't met Penelope Cruz, I haven't run into a millionaire, I haven't found the perfect manicurist."
What you mean: "I'm ABOUT to have an affair. I haven't met Penelope Cruz YET BUT WE'VE BEEN CHATTING OVER SKYPE FOR THE PAST WEEK AND SHE'S COMING OVER NEXT MONTH - WAHEY! I haven't run into a millionaire, BUT ONE REAR-ENDED ME AND THE COMPENSATION SHOULD RUN INTO SIX FIGURES. KER-CHING! I haven't found the perfect manicurist, BUT SHE'S TRIES HER BEST, DON'T YOU PEN?"
I'm right, no?
Glad to hear it anyway.
Paul: Damn, rumbled. Have you been hacking into my computer?
ReplyDeleteI hope the good times continue
ReplyDeleteMyra: Thank you. They're most definitely continuing and it's very exciting.
ReplyDeleteThat is simply cruel.
ReplyDelete(But I'm happy for you.)
Liz: Eh, what's cruel? Not giving you chapter and verse? Sorry, I just can't tell you any more, for a very good reason.
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